Purple Dazzle

Twenty Twelve!

2012-01-03T17:54:00.003+07:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!
Looking forward for a better and amazing year.
Hello, TWENTY TWELVE,
Please be nice to me kay ;)

1st Maquette

2011-12-10T12:55:00.003+07:00

What do you think? :D

♥

2011-12-10T11:40:00.000+07:00

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor, oh
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walking out the door.

Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Saying there goes my little girl walking with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Oooh well little darling watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try, I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine

Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain
Ooooh Don't you say goodbye, don't just say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
Cause there'll be no sunlight if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain..

-Bruno Mars

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought Your heart to me
I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more
One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought Your heart to me
I have loved you for a Thousand years
I'll love you for a Thousand more
-Christina Perri

The songs are from Breaking Dawn's soundtrack and I'm so in love with those songs.
But I know, reality isn't always as perfect as stories in sweet and romantic films.

Cause now... I'm totally messed up.

"Sometimes the best way to to solve a problem is to just stop caring. -@DamnRightTweets"

Underneath Your Love

2011-11-24T16:39:00.001+07:00

Just to see that smile on your pretty face
I'll do everything I have to,
Won't let anything in my way
yeah I'll admit it
I get butterflies in my stomach
when I'm with you
cause you know we're fresh in love

Underneath Your Love is where I wanna be
Oh I never ever felt this good and I can't get enough
Oh what'd you do to me I can't fall asleep
You put a spell on me and now I'm Underneath Your Love

The feeling is simple like the words I sing
Everybody knows the feeling, it's a cloud nine thing
24 hours in a day is not enough for you and me
For you and me

I don't wanna feel anything else but this
I don't wanna be anywhere else but here

-David Choi <3

Butter on My Toast

2011-11-16T13:50:00.001+07:00

Andy + Sandra Cinematic Wedding Trailer | "..butter on my toast" from Paper Cranes Productions on Vimeo.

I'm in love with Paper Cranes! They're awesome <3

2011-11-12T12:32:00.000+07:00

"She felt so special until she knew he treated every girl like he treated her."

-@Tiffanywilliam

I Smurf You!

2011-10-13T13:45:00.002+07:00

THE SMURFS MOVIE (2011)

There is a place. A place that knows no sadness, where even feeling blue is a happy thing. A place inhabited by little blue beings three apples high. It lies deep within an enchanted forest, hidden away beyond the medieval village. Most people believe this place is made up, only to be found in books or children's imagination. Well, we beg to differ.

Smurfette: I kissed a Smurf, and liked it! ♥

2011-10-04T18:44:00.000+07:00

The New Chapter of Life

2011-09-28T16:03:00.002+07:00

I admit what people around me told "an architecture students must be so busy!" and yeah.... I've got a loooooot assignments to do.
And now I'm still learning so many new things for me, like drawing. Wish me luck ;)
*finger crossed!*

2011-09-18T11:09:00.002+07:00

What goes around comes back around
What goes around comes back around
I say what goes around comes back around
What goes around comes back around...
There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus:]
I wanted you back
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
Oh I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
I thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus:]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus:]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Oh Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oo and I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Hello, University Life!

2011-08-19T23:07:00.003+07:00

Welcoming the new part in my life. Hope everything will be alright and gonna be fun!

2011-08-08T11:28:00.001+07:00

"Because what we have ahead is more important than what we had in the past."
-@helloelvia #TLS

ANNOUNCEMENT ;D

2011-07-28T12:16:00.002+07:00

Hey ya people!
I just want to announce that I've just changed my twitter username from purpledazzle into the new one :D
Welcoming the new name....
Follow me and tweets me,
@ellenvalensia

What's Up?

2011-07-19T20:48:00.004+07:00

Hey guys, how have you been doing? I'm glad too if you enjoy your holiday time. I pretty miss blogging, while I could express anything what is inside my mind and write all of them on my blog. Hahaha, but it's kinda hard for me now. Many things that I can't share to many people and just keep it by myself. :') Anyway.. I'm enjoying my only less-than-one-month left holiday. My university life starts on August 15! Hmm, it's quite exciting to start it but I also feel so afraid with the new routinity, new life, new friends, and many new other things. Hope I'm gonna be a successful architect soon. Pray for me, would you? :D I also want to thank God once again for everything in my life.. For awesome people around me. For people who care for me. For people who loved me. I'm so grateful for having them! I don't need the 'fake' people in my wonderful life. ;)

"I don't play games, when I love, I love with my heart." -Anonymous

Guys, take a look please. I recorded David Choi when he held a concert in Jakarta. Lovin' it much ♥

2011-07-13T11:27:00.001+07:00

credits : tumblr.com

By My Side

2011-07-08T23:47:00.002+07:00

i'm in love with all David Choi's songs.
L O V E !

David Choi Live in Jakarta!

2011-07-01T15:54:00.002+07:00

By My side - David Choi ♥

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

Something Missing, Uh?

2011-06-08T21:56:00.002+07:00

I want to tell many things. but.. not even words could describe how it feels like.

I feel happy.
I feel sad.
I feel excited.
I feel hurt.
I feel disappointed.
I feel grateful.
I feel anything!

And I keep asking myself, what's missing?

"But behind the scenes she means the world to me.
Wanna tell her that she's beautiful, and show her that she's loved.
Hold her hand when she's scared, tell her how much I care...
But that won't win her heart BECAUSE....
Nice guys finish last... "
-Nice Guys, Kevjumba, Ryan Higa, Chester See <3

2011-06-03T16:57:00.001+07:00

"God wants us to live like the Grass. Even if it's stepped on, crushed, burned &cut; it always persists & grows back even greener & stronger!"
-The Love Stories

LOL!

2011-05-24T21:43:00.000+07:00

they're laughing for nothing <3

Saya Lulus!

2011-05-21T13:33:00.003+07:00

May 16, 2011. The Announcement <3

Yeah.
I'm officially finished the journey of high school!
Though i didn't give my best, but i think i've to be grateful for the result.
Thank you GOD!
Thank you for all peole who support me, a lot.
Thank you high school for the precious moments and unforgettable memories :')

Quotes of The Day.

2011-05-19T14:30:00.000+07:00

"Count the garden by the flowers, not by the leaves that fall. So let us count our lives by the blessings & not the problems."

♥

2011-05-13T23:49:00.002+07:00

here we come, Bali!

more images coming soon :)

The most simple yet precious thing in life.

2011-05-04T16:11:00.001+07:00

so..... smile.

images courtesy : tumblr.com

Agents of Secret Stuff

2011-05-03T12:01:00.001+07:00

This video totally makes me uber-like Ryan Higa ♥
He's damn cool and funny!

Mood Booster!

2011-05-02T22:15:00.003+07:00

call me late, but they're really made my day and make me sit all day long in front of my laptop to watch their videos on youtube. you guys are awesome Kev Jumba, Ryan Higa, and Philip Wang :D

Strangers, Again.
"Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable."

I'm Free Like A Bird!

2011-04-27T13:40:00.003+07:00

Hey folks!
I'm done with all school-thingy!!!!!!
No more studying at class, assignments, exams and other things related to high school! I'm feeling sad for end this happiness, but life goes on huh?
So I'm on a super extra long holiday, hmm for about FOUR MONTHS!

Enjoy your time buddies! Let's have some fuuuuuuun ;)

Someday

2011-04-13T15:05:00.000+07:00

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you

Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and I'm not do anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Last Days in High School

2011-04-12T14:23:00.004+07:00

one of my yearbook photo session ;)

i really enjoy my last days in high schools.
it feels bad to end my happy moments with my friend. i'm sure i'm gonna miss them. miss them a lot, so muchhhh!
a week ahead i'm facing my national final exam. wish me luck, guys.
*fingercrossed*

Cause Life Rolls Up & Down

2011-03-26T10:14:00.002+07:00

Hey folks!
How have you been doing lately?
I'm kinda busy with my school life. I just done the final exam from school. So one thing left to be focused at, national final exam or UN. Keep fighting for this thing, I'll work harder ;)
I feel so random recently. My moods up and down. And I don't know how to describe this feeling.
Suddenly an 'awkward' moments happened. I should've learnt from the past so I'll NEVER fall to the same hole again, same mistakes, same feeling to be hurt in the end.
But yeah, this is life. We have to go on, no matter what happens.

"Don't let temporary rejection decide your permanent direction. A no is just a test to see how bad you want a better YES!" #TheSW

Practical Examination

2011-03-10T17:04:00.003+07:00

Hey, folks!
Kinda busy nowadays, I've got so many things to do. From tryouts until practical exam.
But I'm done with the practical exam! Now, I have to focus on UAS & UN. Pray for me guys, would ya? ;)
Anyway. During these days of practical exam, I learnt so many things. Thank God for the chance and for His blessing!
High school days only a month left. Should I be happy? Sure I'm pretty sad remember about this. I'm gonna miss my high school moments so muchhhhh definitely :'( and what I can do for now just enjoying my days. And sure, I'm gonna make it counts :)

Let's Spread Love!

2011-02-14T18:27:00.002+07:00

No one can understand love who has not experienced infatuation. And no one can understand infatuation, no matter how many times he has experienced it.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! ♥

18th Birthday's Surprise!

2011-01-30T10:13:00.003+07:00

"In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, for in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed."

HEY, 18!

2011-01-21T19:52:00.000+07:00

Wooooott! I'm eighteen now. Time flies so fast.
Thank God for your blessing until I've reached this age.
Give me more wisdom, maturity, and please bless my study and my whole life ;)

Thankyou for all wishes dearest friends and family.
I'm so glad having all of you in my life! ♥

GRENADE

2011-01-10T15:30:00.002+07:00

Grenade - Bruno Mars ♥

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

2011, Please Be Nice!

2011-01-07T18:22:00.002+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 EVERYONE :D

Hope this year gonna be more awesome, more exciting, more rockin' my life, and gimme more happiness.

it's been almost a year. many things happened during my 17. thanks for one more year YOU have given me!

2 more weeks to be 18, anyway ♥
I've got many things in my wish list. but my biggest wish is still find my happiness, to live happily ever after ;)

ARE YOU READY FOR 2011?

2010-12-30T16:43:00.003+07:00

Welcoming 2011 in few days.

I've been trough 2010 with so many memories, good and bad things.
And now I'm looking forward for a better year!

Then, 2011 please be better and nice to me

Santa, Would You Grant My Wishes?

2010-12-24T12:41:00.001+07:00

Merry Christmas 2010

Hope you have a joyful and full of blessing Christmas.
God Bless!

Happy Mother's Day ♥

2010-12-22T14:26:00.002+07:00

YOU ARE MY SUPERMOM!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
YOU ARE THE BEST.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :*

Make Up My Mind

2010-12-18T12:59:00.002+07:00

Now I should make up my mind. Don't be a weak girl, Ellen. You should get up and be strong. No matter what happen, you have to know as long as God with you, you can do anything well!

"Don't make someone as your priority when you're only an option for them."

Anyway, HAPPY HOLIDAY GUYS! Hope you all have a unforgettable days. Enjoy!

Blank.

2010-12-13T19:11:00.003+07:00

I hate this situation. I know I have to be strong, but I'm tired pretending like everything is okay. My life now, better than before. Much much better and I'm so grateful for this. But, there's still something missing...

WOOHOO!

2010-12-04T17:45:00.002+07:00

HEY PEOPLE ;D
Finally i've just finished my final exam for this semester.
HEYHO HOLIDAY! come come come to me :) :) :)

Remember Me

2010-11-27T09:44:00.003+07:00

i just need you now. remember me. i'll be there for you.

let the sweet memories stay in my heart ♥

2010-11-12T17:16:00.003+07:00

Bandung, you gave me thousand sweet memories!
I just can't ever get enough to smile :)

..and I'm officially missing PASSFour TIME MACHINE.
what a great last cup in my high school period.
many memories, precious moments.
sad happy stressed but all things came to a satisfying ending! :')
going to upload more photos soon. promise :p

so, what should i do now? just keep this steady stupid feeling or what, uh?

"God wouldn't give you anything He knew you couldn't handle. So when times get rough, remember you'll get through it." -TLS

RE-POST.

2010-10-15T16:36:00.004+07:00

cerita ini udah gw post sekitar bulan july 2009.
lalu, kenapa gw re-post cerita ini?
jawabannya karena gw bener-bener tersentuh sama cerita "Pohon, Daun, dan Angin" ini.
temen-temen baca cerita ini deh, gw jamin lu semua pasti juga bakal tersentuh.

POHON, DAUN, DAN ANGIN

"Jika Kau menginginkan cinta dari seseorang, tunjukkan cintamu. Cinta tidak membutuhkan keraguan, Tunjukan saja!"

POHON
Alasan mengapa orang-orang memanggilku “Pohon” karena aku sangat baik dalam menggambar pohon. Setelah itu, aku selalu menggunakan gambar pohon pada sisi kanan sebagai trademark pada semua lukisanku. Aku telah berpacaran sebanyak 5 orang wanita ketika aku masih di SMA.

Ada satu wanita yang aku sangat aku cintai, tapi aku tidak punya keberanian untuk mengatakannya. Dia tidak memiliki wajah yang cantik, tubuh yang sexy, dsb, dia sangat peduli dengan orang lain dan religius tapi dia hanya wanita biasa saja.

Aku menyukainya, sangat menyukainya, menyukai gayanya yang innocent dan apa adanya, kemandiriannya, aku menyukai kepandaiannya dan kekuatannya. Alasan aku tidak mengajaknya kencan karena aku merasa dia yang sangat biasa dan tidak serasi untukku. Aku juga takut, jika kami bersama semua perasaan yang indah ini akan hilang. Aku juga takut kalau gosip-gosip yang ada akan menyakitinya. Aku merasa dia adalah “sahabatku” dan aku akan memilikinya tiada batasnya dan aku tidak harus memberikan semuanya hanya untuk dia.

Alasan yang terakhir, membuat dia menemaniku dalam berbagai pergumulan selama 3 tahun ini. Dia tahu aku mengejar gadis-gadis lain, dan aku telah membuatnya menangis selama 3 tahun.

Ketika aku mencium pacarku yang kedua, dan terlihat olehnya. Dia hanya tersenyum dengan berwajah merah dan berkata “lanjutkan saja” dan setelah itu pergi meninggalkan kami. Esoknya, matanya bengkak.. dan merah… Aku sengaja tidak mau memikirkan apa yang menyebabkannya menangis, but…

Aku tertawa dengannya seharian. Ketika semuanya telah pulang, dia sendirian di kelas untuk menangis. Dia tidak tahu bahwa aku kembali dari latihan sepak bola untuk mengambil sesuatu di kelas, dan aku melihatnya menangis selama sejam-an.

Pacarku yang ke-4 tidak menyukainya. Pernah sekali mereka berdua perang dingin, aku tahu bukan sifatnya untuk memulai perang dingin. Tapi aku masih tetap bersama pacarku. Aku berteriak padanya dan matanya penuh dengan air mata sedih dan kaget. Aku tidak memikirkan perasaannya dan pergi meninggalkannya bersama pacarku. Esoknya masih tertawa dan bercanda denganku seperti tidak ada yang terjadi sebelumnya. Aku tahu bahwa dia sangat sedih dan kecewa tapi dia tidak tahu bahwa sakit hatiku sama buruknya dengan dia, aku juga sedih.

Ketika aku putus dengan pacarku yang ke 5, aku mengajaknya pergi. Setelah kencan satu hari itu, aku mengatakan bahwa ada sesuatu yang ingin kukatakan padanya. Dia mengatakan bahwa kebetulan sekali bahwa dia juga ada sesuatu yang ingi dia katakan padaku. Aku cerita padanya tentang putusnya aku dengan pacarku dan dia berkata tentang dia sedang memulai suatu hubungan dengan seseorang. Aku tahu pria itu.

Dia sering mengejarnya selama ini. Pria yang baik, penuh energi dan menarik. Aku tak bisa memperlihatkan betapa sakit hatinya aku, tapi hanya bisa tersenyum dan mengucapkan selamat padanya. Ketika aku sampai di rumah, sakit hatiku bertambah kuat dan aku tidak dapat menahannya. Seperti ada batu yang sangat berat didadaku. Aku tak bisa bernapas dan ingin berteriak namun tidak bisa.

Air mata mengalir dan aku jatuh menangis. Sudah sering aku melihatnya menangis untuk pria yang mengacuhkan kehadirannya. Ketika upacara kelulusan, aku membaca SMS di Handphoneku. SMS itu dikirim 10 hari yang lalu ketika aku sedih dan menangis. SMS itu berbunyi, “Daun terbang karena Angin bertiup atau karena Pohon tidak memintanya untuk tinggal?”.

DAUN
Selama SMA, aku suka mengoleksi daun-daun, kenapa? Karena aku merasa bahwa daun untuk meninggalkan pohon yang selama ini ditinggali selama ini membutuhkan banyak kekuatan.

Selama 3 tahun di SMA, aku dekat dengan seorang pria, bukan sebagai pacar tapi “Sahabat”. Tapi ketika dia mempunyai pacar untuk yang pertama kalinya, Aku mempelajari sebuah perasaan yang belum pernah aku pelajari sebelumnya - CEMBURU. Perasaan di hati ini tidak bisa digambarkan dengan menggunakan Lemon. Hal itu seperti 100 butir lemon busuk. Mereka hanya bersama selama 2 bulan. Ketika mereka putus, aku menyembunyikan perasaan yang luar biasa gembiranya. Tapi sebulan kemudian dia bersama seorang gadis lagi.

Aku menyukainya dan aku tahu bahwa dia juga menyukaiku, but mengapa dia tidak mau mengatakannya? Sejak dia mencintaiku, mengapa dia tidak yang memulainya dulu untuk melangkah? Ketika dia punya pacar baru lagi, hatiku selalu sakit. Waktu berjalan.. dan berjalan, hatiku sakit.

Aku mulai mengira bahwa ini adalah cinta yang bertepuk sebelah tangan, tapi mengapa dia memperlakukanku dengan sangat baik diluar perlakuannya hanya untuk seorang teman?

Menyukai seseorang sangat menyusahkan hati, aku tahu kesukaannya, kebiasaannya. Tapi perasaannya kepadaku tidak pernah bisa diketahui. Kau tidak mengharapkan aku seorang wanita untuk mengatakannya bukan?

Diluar itu, aku mau tetap disampingnya, memberikannya perhatian, menemaninya, dan mencintainya. Berharap, bahwa suatu hari, dia akan datang dan mencintaiku. Hal itu seperti menunggu telpon-nya. Setiap malam, mengharapkannya untuk mengirimku SMS. Aku tahu sesibuk apapun dia, dia pasti meluangkan waktunya untukku. Karena itu, aku menunggunya. 3 tahun cukup berat untuk kulalui dan aku mau menyerah.

Kadang aku berpikir untuk tetap menunggu. Luka dan Sakit hati, dan dilema yang menemaniku selama 3 tahun ini.

Ketika diakhir tahun ke 3, seorang pria mengejarku dia adalah adik kelasku, setiap hari dia mengejarku tanpa lelah. Dari penolakan-penolakan yang telah ditunjukkan, aku merasa bahwa aku ingin memberikan dia ruang kecil dihatiku.

Dia seperti angin yang hangat dan lembut, mencoba meniup daun untuk terbang dari pohon. Akhirnya, aku sadar bahwa aku tidak ingin memberikan Angin ini ruang yang kecil di hatiku. Aku tahu Angin ini akan membawa pergi Daun yang lusuh jauh dan ketempat yang lebih baik. Akhirnya Aku meninggalkan Pohon, tapi Pohon hanya tersenyum dan tidak memintaku untuk tinggal, aku sangat sedih memandangnya tersenyum ke arahku.

“Daun terbang karena Angin bertiup atau Pohon tidak memintanya untuk tinggal?”

ANGIN
Karena aku menyukai seorang gadis bernama Daun, karena dia sangat bergantung pada Pohon, jadi aku harus menjadi Angin yang kuat.

Angin akan meniup Daun terbang jauh. Ketika aku pertama kalinya, ketika 1 bulan setelah aku pindah sekolah. Aku melihat seorang memperhatikan kami bermain sepak bola. Ketika itu, dia selalu duduk disana sendirian atau dengan teman-temannya memperhatikan Pohon. Ketika Pohon berbicara dengan gadis-gadis, ada cemburu di matanya. Ketika Pohon melihat ke arah Daun, ada senyum di matanya.

Memperhatikannya menjadi kebiasaanku, seperti daun yang suka melihat Pohon. Satu hari, dia tidak tampak, aku merasakan kehilangan. Seniorku juga tidak ada saat itu, Aku pergi ke kelas mereka, melihat seniorku sedang memperhatikan Daun. Air mata mengalir di mata Daun ketika Pohon pergi, besoknya, aku melihat Daun di tempatnya yang biasa, memperhatikan Pohon. Aku melangkah dan tersenyum padanya. Menulis catatan dan memberikan kepadanya. Dia sangat kaget.

Dia melihat ke arahku, tersenyum dan menerima catatanku. Besoknya, dia datang, menghampiriku dan memberiku catatan. Hati Daun sangat kuat dan Angin tidak bisa meniupnya pergi, hal itu karena Daun tidak mau meninggalkan Pohon. Aku melihat ke arahnya dengan kata-kata tersebut dan pelan dia mulai berkata padaku dan menerima kehadiranku dan telpon-ku. Aku tahu orang yang dia cintai bukan aku, tapi aku akan berusaha agar suatu hari dia menyukai aku.

Selama 4 bulan, Aku tlah mengucapkan kata Cinta tidak kurang dari 20x kepadanya. Setiap kali dia mengalihkan pembicaraan.. tapi aku tidak menyerah, aku memutuskan untuk memiliki dia dan berharap dia akan setuju menjadi pacarku.

Aku bertanya, “Apa yang kau lakukan? Kenapa kau tidak pernah membalas?”

Dia berkata, “Aku menengadahkan kepalaku”.

“Ah?”, Aku tidak percaya apa yang aku dengar.

“Aku menengadahkan kepalaku”, dia berteriak.

Aku meletakkan telpon, berpakaian dan naik taxi ke tempat dia, dan dia membuka pintu, aku memeluknya kuat-kuat.

“Daun terbang karena tiupan Angin atau karena Pohon tidak memintanya untuk tinggal?“

PS :
sekarang, gw cm mw pesen 1 hal ..
Angin, tolong jaga daun tetep terbang ya?
jaga daun tetep di samping lu, jaga daun jangan sampe terjatuh dan terinjak ..
krn gw sayang bamget sm dia ..

Thanks God!

2010-10-08T16:00:00.004+07:00

received this message this afternoon,

I'm so happy that I can make my parents proud of me.
Thank you so much Jesus for this scholarship!
You are my awwwesomeee Daddy :D

Friends Make Life Worth, More.

2010-10-06T15:27:00.002+07:00

Take care in Australia, dearest sist!
Thank you for everything.
You're my good friend, of course :)

♥

2010-10-02T15:08:00.003+07:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it true without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

you. make. me. smile.

September Ends Soon

2010-09-25T13:12:00.002+07:00

Dearest September,

Thank you for making me smile.
Thank you for the happiness.
Thank you for the memories that I won't ever forget ;)

Why Not?

2010-09-14T15:43:00.003+07:00

Mine?

2010-09-14T14:43:00.002+07:00

Oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh.

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it

I can see it now.
Song : "Taylor Swift - Mine"

THEN... WOULD YOU BE MINE?

This Is Real Life, Not a Fairy Tales

2010-09-13T10:26:00.002+07:00

HAPPY HOLIDAY everyone!
Hope you have a great holiday :)
xoxo, LENS ♥

i don't know why i feel like this. i'm not sure enough, uh?

could you make me believe this is true?
would you wake me up from my bad dreams?
i'm pretty not sure :'(

cause you are amazing... JUST THE WAY YOU ARE! :')

It's Time to Say Hello to... Mr. HOLIDAY

2010-09-07T19:49:00.004+07:00

Happy holiday, fellas!

Have a nice day and enjoy your holiday :)

Oh, I Wish You Were Here.

2010-09-02T16:21:00.002+07:00

Hello! It has been a long time I haven't posted anything yet.
I'm back :)
Yes. School exactly pushes me to study harder than on grade 11.
Feel stressed sometimes. But there's no way to turn back and I have to face it.
Arghhh, I wanna tell many things.
But.. I don't know how.
Cause sometime, it's better to left unsaid.

PROBLEM SOLVING at CILOTO, PUNCAK

VISIT UPH

At Funeral. Grandma's left us for a year.
Do you recognize something from pict above?
Give attention to the candle.

HUT 60 BPK PENABUR at JITEC Mangga Dua

7 Eleven

Manda's Birthday Bash at Glass House

My Soulmate's 17th Birthday.
Yessy in Wonderland, at JW Mariott Hotel
You're my best friend, thankyou for these over than 12 years maybe.
ILY :*

FOOD FESTIVAL

Festival Rakyat 2010
Independence Day :)

Should be grateful for every single thing I've got in life.
Thankyou Daddy, You never leave me alone.
Thankyou for Your blessing.
Thankyou for giving me this life.
No need to regret for what happened in the past.
Life goes on and the future is waiting for you :)

Nothing is too big for my God to accomplish, and nothing is too little for Him to use in accomplishing it! -@worldprayr #JWSI

FOLLOW : @purpledazzle
VISIT : deviantART

COMING SOON : PASSFour TIME MACHINE

2010-08-20T19:25:00.003+07:00

image credits : http://alectrobot.deviantart.com/

SMAK 4 PROUDLY PRESENTS:

OPEN REGISTRATION Passfour Timemachine!
For more information, please contact:
Futsal: Reynaldo Christianto 081806962161
Basket Putra: Agassi Rusli 08179853356
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Tenis Meja: Delbert Reinaldo 087877878796
Modern Dance: Natasha Surya 081808217085
Band: Daniel W. Otto 08989254961
Mural: Tino Deryanto 081210857560
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Save your date on 30 October - 6 November 2010 & join us on PASSFour TIME MACHINE!

ADD US ON FACEBOOK AND FOLLOW US @PASSFour2010
PASSFour TIME MACHINE, Pass the Future with the Past!

NEED YOUR HELP!

2010-08-13T21:52:00.002+07:00

PEOPLE, I NEED YOUR HELP TO LEAVE SOME COMMENTS AND ADD THIS PICTURE TO YOUR FAVOURITE (on deviantART) :p
I'm getting good score if many people who likes and gives comments on this pic. just click HERE :)
THANKYOU SO MUCH!

xoxo,
ELLEN VALENSIA ♥

Welcoming!

2010-08-07T15:34:00.005+07:00

Yeaaa.. I've made a Deviant Art account finally.
Actually it refers to my art class' assignment, but I haven't finished it yet.
So for everyone who read this, I need your help to view my DA account, and leave some comment or favourite :p
I'll tell you more later!

Danke!

Knock Knock, Anybody Here?

2010-08-04T16:36:00.004+07:00

HEY YA! I'M BACK. Do you miss me? ;D
Well after a long time i haven't posted anything yet, finally i have a little time to meet my blog.
For these weeks, I've had awesome and unforgettable moments.

Here they areeee!

Perjamuan Kasih Kelas 12A1 :D
Classmeeting Futsal (Students, Teachers, and Staffs) & Tarik Tambang

MOS 2010, SMAK 4 ♥ INDONESIA

Last picture we took before Elsa moved to Malaysia :'(

Had fun with my course's friends :D

Quality Time with Devina & Devita, my bestfriends when in elementary school :)

Yolani's 17th Birthday at Musro

Me UBER ♥ SUSHI!

Too much pictures? Oops, sorry if you mind :p
Bad for me. Because of last holiday activities, I'm being fatter. Argh this is so terrible.
School stuffs? Oh, I really can't explain it more.
Being a 12 grader, we must study in a short time because of national exam on March.
Tests everyday, assignments, homeworks, etc.
OH MY GOSH!
I'm scared. Of many things maybe I shouldn't.
Time flies too fast. I have to run to catch and deal with it.
End here and I'll post many more later.

Wanna know more?
Follow : @purpledazzle

Ciaooo!

Kinda Busy Nowadays.

2010-07-27T16:40:00.002+07:00

No posting for days, weeks maybe. Sorry.

School makes me spinning round and round.
I'm gonna back soon!

It's All About... Searching.

2010-07-05T13:58:00.005+07:00

"No man is worth your tears, but once you find one that is, he won't make you cry."
-Anon #ihatequotes

Geez, these eyebag caused stayed up late for watching worldcup. I slept at morning for weeks.
Really hate this!

Here they are.. We were having fun at Kidzania.
I think this place such a really good to give some education for children. They got a lot of jobs to get there. Great!

"Never shall I forget the times I spent with you; continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."

Then, holiday just several days left. What should I do?
I don't even ready back to school. Studying, doing homeworks, exams, assignments. Sigh.
Thinking about good times just too good for me.
Trying to find the good one ain't that easy.
Knowing the truth make me wanna laugh, but it's hurt also.
Why there's could be a freaky person like you?
As time goes by, I walk away.. and saying Bye Bad Memories!
Too fool if I sad like the past. Many people do care about me more.
I laugh and spend my days full of laughter.
To find the meaning of life. A happy life :D

Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light.
To break up the dark.
That's when I..
I look at you ♥
-Miley Cyrus

Feel FREE!

2010-06-23T13:52:00.002+07:00

HELLO PEOPLE! ;D
how are you? fine, right? oh i smell holiday happiness on this June. this is so nice, isn't it?
sorry for not posting for days and now i'm back!
i just wanna share a lil' things from my recent days. i'm so happy :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAKARTA!

ADIEU -SMAK 4'S PROM NIGHT

my niece tried HYSTERIA, the newest game at Dufan.

and finally, I was brave enough to tried kora-kora, niagara, etc ;)

hanging out with my course's mates :)

birthday cake (it's a surprise) for Rainy!

Devina Japar's Sweet Seventeen Birthday Dinner <3

XIA1 FAREWELL :D

my best pals ♥

maybe this wouldn't be the greatest holiday, but i'm spending it wisely to refresh my mind from all bad things. lol! this freedom that i have, make feel so freeeee ;) i wanna go abroad actually. hmmm :/

how do you spend your holiday?

tweets me @purpledazzle
danke! :)

Hello, Grade 12!

2010-06-11T11:26:00.003+07:00

HOORRAAAYY!
I've passed 11th grade finally :)

Hmm.. Mungkin kelas 11 ini jadi tahun terberat juga buat gw.
Setahun yang lalu gw sudah memutuskan untuk memilih Science or Social class.
Dan pilihan gw jatuh buat memilih IPA, so I have to deal with it.
Setahun ini banyak banget pengalaman yang ga bakal bisa gw lupain.
Pengalaman menyenangkan, menyedihkan, menegangkan, semua terjadi tahun ini.
Tapi gw bersyukur banget bisa ada di kelas XIA1.
Teman-teman di kelas yang udah ngasih gw kenangan banyak banget, yang saling mendukung satu sama lain.
Mereka yang ngasih gw dukungan dan nyemangatin gw hingga gw bisa sampe sekarang ini.
Soal pelajaran mungkin hasilnya belom cukup memuaskan gw. Yah, ranking 4 not too bad, uh?
Tapi gw bangga dengan semua hasil kerja kerasa gw selama ini. Seneng rasanyaaa :')
Sekarang gw udah naik kelas. Menuju ke kelas terakhir di jenjang SMA.
Deg-degan juga harus menghadapi perjuangan yang lebih keras lagi.
Gw harus bisa berjuang lagi, supaya bisa menghasilkan yang lebih baik dan lebih baik lagi.
Wish me luck ya, guys! I really do need your supports :D

Anyway, today is the OPENING of WORLD CUP 2010!
This video is the soundtrack of World Cup 2010, Waka-Waka (This Time For Africa) by Shakira.
Guess who will be the winner? ;)

We Grow Up & We Learn New Things

2010-06-09T09:10:00.004+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA FIDELIA AND BERLIAN PURNAMASARI ♥

“A mature person is one who is does not think only in absolutes, who is able to be objective even when deeply stirred emotionally, who has learned that there is both good and bad in all people and all things, and who walks humbly and deals charitably.” - Eleanor Roosevelt

I call this FREEDOM.

2010-06-03T12:49:00.003+07:00

Finally i finished my exam. MY EXTRA LONG EXAM, actually.
The problems during exam was totally made me damn tired.
Well, just hoping the best for my report then.
Wish me luck!

And now, say welcome to MR. HOLIDAYYY :)

"The price of freedom is eternal vigilance" -Thomas Jefferson

AWESOME!

2010-05-27T17:48:00.004+07:00

Uh i'm struggling on my final examination!
But, thankfully tomorrow is a holiday. So i went to refresh my mind for a while.
I watched Prince of Persia and it was so awwwesome!
I love the prince and princess, they're handsome and beautiful ♥♥
The film was GREAT overall, and i felt like i was playing in the game.

Thankyou fellas for making me smile of course. Lieben Freunden! :)

I'm Trapped

2010-05-21T16:59:00.002+07:00

Thank God It's Friday!
I'm on my final exam and it's such a big thing for me to take in charge.

If you wanna know, i feel so happy for now.
Yeah i wanna laugh seeing 'people' who make sweet promise easily when in fact they can't make it come true.
Let's see how long it can be stand for. I enjoy my life now, I have so many friends who care for me.
Oh really thankyou guys :')

Anyway, please wish me luck for the final exam. Danke!

Sorry for The Hiatus.

2010-05-15T10:00:00.002+07:00

I'm so busy nowadays. Schools' thingy make me so tired. a week ahead exam gonna be started! oh my, i'm not ready yet.
yes yes yes. but i'm very happy. many things going better and better. just wait and see.. :)
i love this quotes anyway,
"You deserve someone who knows how to make things up again after making you feel bad. Not someone who's very good with just the word 'Sorry'."
-@gittayunanda

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY SUHENDI! :)

school makes me spinning round and round

2010-05-05T16:23:00.004+07:00

may may may, what a tiring month. tiap hari penuh ulangan, pr, dan tugas yang ga pake kira2 banyaknya.
dan mulai tanggal 21 ulangan umum dimulai :'(

i'm not ready to face this craziness!

"Trust is more worthy than diamonds. Don't break the trust you've got. Once you broke it, you can't fix it like before."

Welcome, May.

2010-05-01T17:37:00.003+07:00

I hope you bring much happiness.
Just get that jerk and bitchy go away from my life.
He can't open his mind so let he get something equal as he did.
Ga malu ya?

May, bless me on my final exam.
Let me feel your sweetness, your kindness.
I'm so fed up with this!

"However, He knows the truth and won't let the hypocrites win."

Enough, F!

2010-04-26T15:50:00.002+07:00

masih belom puas sama yang lo dapet dan lakukan?
thank you so much for showing how jerk you are!

seriously both of you are so yucks.
nothing else I can say.
karma does exist!

LDK OSIS 2010-2011 :D

2010-04-15T16:20:00.004+07:00

"Don't tell people how to do things, tell them what to do and let them surprise you with their results"
-George S. Patton

I've Lost My Way

2010-04-08T15:29:00.003+07:00

it has been a week.
even words can't describe what i'm feeling now.
many things i dreamed about, means nothing for now.
you know you were wrong, but you still do it.
they're right. hate that girl doesn't bring any effect for me.
it's just the way to show how shit is she.
i don't know where path i have to walk on?
i've lost my way. because of you, only you you and you.
maybe time will heal this pain. but i need you like you used to be, my 'old bestfriend'.
they would say i'm a fool or i'm too much thinking about it, but yeah it's me.
i'm not strong enough to face this.
i don't know how to pretend be happy. it's just too hurt.
where is the #32 rule? i need it, now :(

images credit : deviantart

Heart-ache

2010-04-06T13:33:00.002+07:00

First of all i wanna say Happy Easter to all of you who celebrates! be blessed for His sacrificed. God bless you all :)

Yes, what can i do now? i just can wait for my best.
Hurt. Deeply hurted.
What do you feel if you have tried to give your best, to make someone happy, care for someone whom you loved but what you get now? dissapointment?
Yeah for the truth yes it is! i don't know whose faults they're. i know you aren't that jerk. i don't wanna full of blaming you. how about her? yeah, i won't be sad to make her feel win. she is not.
i have to be tough. even it's hard, really really hard for me.
please i don't what happened with your mind, maybe something's wrong. open your eyes and see the truth! i have a true feeling for you, and i'm not just saying. i've proved but you don't care about me anymore.
feel regret? useless. angry? yes i am. because of she is a hypocrite! you acted to be nice to us and support me, in the fact? shit.
all i want now is just my happiness. i want everything's back to he normal. i don't wanna get hurt anymore.
i don't hate you, cause if i hate you it won't change the situation.
maybe i don't understand what you want and what you need. someday, please don't be regret of what you did to me, boy :)
i won't forget about you. all memories, i keep it on my mind. you're not mine anymore, but sorry for keeping you in my heart. until someday...

Life Must Goes On, huh?

2010-04-01T16:32:00.003+07:00

aku tak bisa memaksakan perasaan ini lagi.
kalau memang ini jalan-Nya, siapa yang bisa menolak?

aku tak akan pernah bisa melupakan semuanya, semua yang terlalu indah untuk dikenang.
21102009 :)

Tanya Hati

2010-03-31T14:52:00.002+07:00

Tuhan tolonglah
Hapus dia dari hatiku
Kini semua percuma
Tak kan mungkin terjadi
Kisah cinta yang selalu aku banggakan

Kau hempas semua
Masa yang tercipta untukmu
Tanpa pernah melihat
Betapa ku mencoba
Jadi yang terbaik untuk dirimu

Reff:
Oh mengapa tak bisa dirimu
Yang mencintaiku tulus dan apa adanya
Aku memang bukan manusia sempurna
Tapi ku layak dicinta karena ketulusan
Kini biarlah waktu yang jawab semua

Tanya hatiku..

Tanpa pernah melihat
Betapa ku mencoba
Jadi yang terbaik untuk dirimu

Back to Reff:

Waktu yang jawab semua
Tanya hatiku..

maukah kamu mendengar isi hatiku? aku ingin mencoba lagi dan tak ingin menyerah.

Get Your Quality Time

2010-03-25T17:11:00.003+07:00

Happy Birthday to Steven Lim and Jonathan Tantoso :)
-Bandar Djakarta, March 20, 2010

Tak Pernah Setengah Hati

2010-03-20T09:10:00.002+07:00

tak pernah setengah hati
ku mencintaimu
ku memiliki dirimu
setulus-tulusnya jiwa
kuserahkan semua
hanya untukmu

tak pernah aku niati
untuk melukaimu
atau meninggalkan dirimu
sesal ku selalu
bila tak sengaja
aku buat kau menangis

memiliki mencintai
dirimu kasihku
takkan pernah membuat diriku menyesal
sungguh matiku
hidupku kan selalu membutuhkan kamu

a nice song from Tompi. really love the lyrics!

and you.. would you hear my heart?
i don't want that happened once again. please, don't change..
"I may cry a river, but I also smile like the ocean's bliss when I started loving you"

Listen to Your Heart ♥

2010-03-18T15:36:00.002+07:00

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”

image credits here :)

It's YOUR Birthday!

2010-03-07T11:46:00.000+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVEN LIM!
hope you like and surprised :)
wish you all the best in your life and may God bless you forever and ever.
ily!

Its you, still you, and will always be you.

2010-03-02T18:18:00.003+07:00

my last post. that time. the worst day. a nightmare for me. it was make deeply hurt.
well i don't know why. but i believe and trust everything gonna be okay.
seperti dulu...

Tell Me Where It Hurts

2010-02-26T19:17:00.002+07:00

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling
Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
Give me a chance to put back all the pieces
Take your broken heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Oh I'm gonna take it all away, baby

Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Tell me, baby
Tell me, oh yea
Is there anything I can do, baby
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Runaway from problems is simply not how you make peace with yourself, because the problems will soon come back to you. #TWQ

one third of year : )

2010-02-21T12:11:00.002+07:00

we've been together since four months ago.

well, from this, i learn many things. to take and give.
to accept things that i never thought before.
to be more mature. not to be childish.
cause, you're my breath even there's no air :)

i'm still here.

2010-02-18T19:38:00.003+07:00

my 17th birthday :)

chinese new year :)

and i'm still stand here. beside you, with all of my heart.
how about now?
i'm so missing you. missing the times we've spent together. laughing. joking.
i've been trying to understand the situation. even it's really hard for me.
i've been trying to be a better person. not to be childish anymore.
but how long i could stand on?
i want to be the sun in your rainy days.
i want to be the star in your darkest night.
i want to be the rain in your summer days.
i want to be the rainbow in your night, that coloring your life.
problems might come. but we'll trough it.
cause i believe and trust in you.
forever yours ♥

birthday surprise!

2010-01-22T19:21:00.002+07:00

thankyou my classmates for the cake.
thanks for coming at around 9.30. pm :)
i'm so surprised!

please grant my WISHES

and help me out from the problems ;D

happy birthday to me ♥

2010-01-21T18:12:00.004+07:00

...a year ago, i'm still a sixteern years old girl.

and now i'm officially being a seventeen years old girl :)
i hope i could be more mature and be a better person.
and happy three months for my dear :)
thankyou all for the birthday wishes!
sorry, i don't feel too happy today. a lil' bit worst, cause i'm still sick.
my biggest wish now is to get back my healthiness!
disappointed for some things? i don't have to. cause there are many reasons to be happy :D

once again, thankyou guys! i love you :D

Let's Start From Here

2010-01-15T20:03:00.002+07:00

Giving up, why should I
I’ve come too far to forget
We’re beautiful, we just got lost
Somewhere along the way
So much was missing when you went away

Let’s start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don?t need a finish line
Let’s take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn?t seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here

Standing here face to face
A finger on your lips
Don’t say a word don’t make a sound
Silence surrounds us now
Even when you were gone I felt you everywhere
Let’ start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don?t need a finish line
Let’s take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn?t seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here

I’ve never been the one to open up
But you’ve always been the voive within
The only warmth from my cold heart
Let’s start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line
Let’s take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises
Let’s start from here, lose the past
Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line
Let’s take this chance don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn’t seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here

i miss those moments, having a precious times with them.
wanna go there again!

next week,exam will be started. have to prepare many things!
beside that, next week gonna be a superb memorable for me. six days to go :)
TGIF, i love weekend! smooch ♥

and i have to be thankful : )

2010-01-12T14:46:00.002+07:00

and finally.. got the result of my 1st semester's report.
i'm satisfied. even it's only 4th, not 1st in class, but i'm still proud!
i do it in His way and i've done my best : )

homework : i have to study harder and more serious. lol :p

do you know my feeling. i don't know why this happened. i couldn't be the best. yeah. i'm not perfect and i couldn't be as you dream and want. but this is me. i've tried.
i only hope the best and will pass the days full of laughter and smile.

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2010-01-05T16:27:00.001+07:00

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WELCOMING 2O1O! : )

2010-01-04T16:42:00.002+07:00

♥ new year eve ♥
December 31, 2009
Kota Bunga, Puncak

and now, welcome a new year! 2010 is now on!
hope we'll have a marvellous year, full of happiness and fun! :)

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homework!

2009-12-29T08:51:00.005+07:00

i got homework from Yofany :)

Bold the sentences that you have done.

_{i’m loud.
i’m obnoxious.
i’m sarcastic.}_{i’m cocky.
i cry easily.
i have a bad temper.
for the most part, i don’t like people.
i’m easy to get along with.
i like to fight.
i have more enemies than friends.
i’ve smoked.
i’ve smoked weed.
i drink coffee.
i clean my room daily.}

_{my appearance}

_{i’m shorter than 5’5.
i wear makeup.
i wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
i wear contacts.
i wear glasses.
i’ve had braces.}_{i have braces.
i change my hair color often.
i straighten my hair often.
my ears are pierced.
i have small feet.}
_{relationships}

_{i’m in a relationship now.
i’m single.
i’m crushin’.
i’ve missed an ex before.
i’m always scared of being hurt.
an ex has physically abused me at least once.
i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.}
_{i’ve been in love more than two times.
i believe in love at first sight.
i believe lust is more important than love.

friendships}

_{i have a best friend}_{.
i have at least ten friends.
i’ve}_{gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
i’ve beaten up a friend.}
_{i’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
i can trust at least five people with my life.}

_experiences

_{i’ve been on a plane.
i’ve left the state/province.
someone close to me has died.
i’ve taken a taxi.
i’ve taken a city bus.
i’ve gone bungee jumping.}
_{i’ve made a speech.
i’ve been in some sort of club.
i’ve won an award.
i’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
i’ve been in a physical fight.}

_music

_{i listen to country.}_{i listen to some pop.
i listen to techno.
i listen to rock.
i’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it.
i hate the radio.
i download music.
i buy cd’s.}

_television

_{i spend at least six hours a day watching television.
i watch soap operas daily.}_{i’m in love with days of our lives.
i’ve seen and like the oc.
i}_{’ve seen and like one tree hill}_{.
i’ve seen and like america’s next top model.
i’ve seen and like popular.
i’ve seen and like house.
i’ve seen and like 24.
i’ve seen and like csi.
i’ve seen and like everwood.}
_{family life}

_{i get along with both of my parents.
my biological parents are still together.
i have at least one brother.
i have at least one sister.
i have at least one step brother/sister.}
_{i have at least one half brother/sister.
i’ve been kicked out of the house.
i}_{’ve ran away from my home.
i’ve sworn at my parents.
i’ve made my parents cry.}

_{i’ve lied to my parents.}

_{i’ve lied to my parents so i’d be allowed out.}

_{i’ve walked out when i’ve been grounded.}

_hair

_{i’ve cut my hair in the past year.
i’ve dyed my hair in the past year.}_{i’ve been blonde.
i’ve had black.
i’ve been red.}
i’ve been medium brown.
i’ve been brown.
i’ve had streaks.
_{i’ve been light brown}_{.
i’ve had purple/pink}_{.
i’ve been blue/green.}
_{i’ve gotten my hair thinned.
i use conditioner.
i’ve used silk therapy.
i’ve used hot oil treatments.
i’ve curled my hair.
i’ve straightened my hair.
i’ve ironed my hair.
i’ve braided my hair.i’ve had/want dreadlocks.}

_school

_{i’ve thrown something at a teacher.}
_{i’ve yelled at a teacher.
i’ve been suspended.
i’ve had an in-school suspension.
i’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
i}_{’ve walked out of class.
i’ve skipped an entire day of school.}_{i’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
i’ve failed a test.
i’ve cheated on a test.
i}_{’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
i’ve failed art.
i’ve failed p.e.
i’ve failed math.}
_{i’ve failed science.
i’ve failed another class.
a teacher has called my parents.
i’ve been caught skipping.}

_{then, should I post this homework to other? if you wanna do, just do it as my homework! thanks people :)}

wishing you a merry christmas :)

2009-12-26T09:00:00.003+07:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS, GUYS!
have a blessed Christmas. Jbu :)

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